The date was fixed, and leave sanctioned. The no dues certificate was complete but for the signature from the bank, and I was on my way to college in the deluxe air-conditioned bus. Everything seemed fine, the butterflies in my stomach before the presentation, the general banter, usual cribs about life, and there was a cursory smile stuck on my face. The presentation happened hours before its allotted time, and it all seemed really fine until they issued my course completion certification. Then came jubilation mixed with apprehension. This was to happen someday, and today was the day.
Somehow it feels like the days flew away in a jiffy. All of us feel that way right? Press the rewind button and pause at 23 months, this was the very place I dint want to be a part of. I had an admission offer, and I dint want to waste a year, and this was one of the quickest decisions I’d taken.
And this happened on my way back home from college after the presentation. The trail of thoughts that hit you when they're least expected...
This goes out to all you guys from the batch of 08-10.
I vividly recollect the day when I gingerly walked into a campus far far away from the city; 30kms to be very precise. I looked like a dork on my very first day, and I stopped by the corridor to ask for directions to the classroom, and suddenly somebody recognised me- I’m sure it was plain guess work. The girl asks “You are S, right?” I mumbled a yeah, and entered the classroom only to have people stare back at me.
I did not want to be known, I did not want friends at all. I’ve come a long way from being all that... In the September of 2008 the only thing on my mind was to get an MBA degree and walk back in the opposite direction with no encumbrances whatsoever. I did try and stick to my guns for as long as I could, spoke very little and to very few people. Somewhere the good trust I had in human beings was lost on my train to Chennai. I had an invisible shell around me, a shell so strong that even powerful nuclear rays could penetrate them. I had an invisible “leave me alone” tag hung around my neck as a precautionary measure.
And then, the something happened. Probably I realised I was killing myself being what I could not be. I started smiling more, talking more and getting caught in class more often. By then I had almost lost my 1st semester of college. From then on, it’s been a helluva rollercoaster of a ride.
It would be plain redundancy if I recollect everything that we’ve been thru in the last 23 odd months. I’m sure it’s been a great learning experience. Each one of us has forged bonds of friendship, trust and goodwill. Personally, I’ve changed a lot, mellowed down a lot more, and made awesome friends (I would have missed them, had I decided against joining the insti). I’ve been able to break the mould of the attitude girl (perceptions) to be known for what I am.
Thanks a bunch for being there all you boys and girls. From now on we will be addressed as “Corporates”. Today they have stripped us of that safety net of being a student. We’ve been thrown into a sea full of sharks, hoping that we’d grow up to become friendly sharks one day. I’m sure that made no sense.
As we move on in different directions, each pursuing his / her own end goal, let’s make an honest attempt to stay in touch, and keep the spark going.
I don’t know what to call myself,
PS: Reminiscing, I couldn't help but wonder what life would have otherwise been like. And when I could take it no more, I let the little tear slide down my cheek, in full public view.
PS1: All this happened in a crowded bus back home, and the girl seated next to me asked me "Break-up"? Well, yeah.. But a break up of different kind. Here you part with happy memories. Memories so beautiful that you'd want to revisit them every other day, laugh at the goof ups, and get senti over the happy moments, and wish and pray to the one above you and each one of us remain the same.