Sunday, December 30, 2012

Letter to an Unscrupulous Rat

Disclaimer: This post has been sitting pretty in my drafts since July, and every time I came close to publishing it, something stopped me. Firstly, I dint want this space of mine to turn into a complaint box, secondly, if I wrote crap about him, then it would make me no different from the unscrupulous rat he is. Thirdly, I'm in a very happy phase in my life right now, everything is perfect.  *touchwood, a million, gazillion times*

But as the year draws to an end, I wanted a closure. I wanted this post to be in the past and not spill into the new year thereby ruining my future. 

Post beings.

There is a reason why am writing to you. By the time to read this, I'd be out of the place I fondly call “inferno”.  At the outset, I must thank you for teaching me innumerable lessons about the corporate world and enlightening me on; how to play dirty politics. Thank you very much. Let me assure you right now, that this is not an act of cowardice; this is how I pay back. If I posted disparaging statuses about you on social media, then it would make me no different from the unscrupulous rat you are.

You know what? I’m rather surprised that people in this particular place have entrusted you with responsibility and that there’s so much riding on your back and they still believe that you are a leader. I’d rather not question how the system functions, because it really is none of my business.

Thanks to all this, you consider yourself Mr. Invincible right? I mean, nobody can raise a finger against you, but you on the other hand can go around pointing fingers at people, ruining their ratings, down playing their performance and making them look miserable and worthless in general! Wielding so much power to ruin another person’s life, mental peace and happiness should definitely be gratifying.

This is what pisses me the most. How can these people still believe in you! In my honest opinion, you are worth absolutely nothing.

Without wasting time, let me tell you a story about a certain guy, who was Mr. Invincible of a certain company. This guy was the unquestionable star performer, he’d swiftly moved up the ladder in no time. Truth to be told, he was one hell of a task master. His teammates hated him, but he was revered for being a subject matter expert. That made him invincible.

I’m sure you are wondering what this has to do with your star-studded professional life and being Mr. Invincible? Hold on.. We’re getting there.

A couple of months ago, a colleague and team-mate of his, had raised a harassment alarm against him. Her complaint being; he was treating her badly and did not respect her. So, mister, does that sound familiar? That organization, which hailed him until then, sprung into action and he was sacked. Yes, the biggies heard her part of the story, and they decided it was wise on their part to send him off.

Until that very moment, he was their star performer, and the people who ran that place did what most organizations would do; protect the interests of their employees.

In your case, three women had raised complaints against you, on grounds of being; ill-treated, put through mental agony, yelled at and not being given enough respect. You treated us like we were bonded to slavery. Not an ounce of respect. Nobody deserves to be treated like that.  Unfortunately, the wonderful place where you work, decided to take the employees in question to task.

I still haven’t figured out how it works, but like I mentioned, it really is none of my business. But a little part of me, really wished, they’d taken some severe against you as well. Because, you deserved worse than what we did. Somebody should have done something to bring you down from that pedestal you were sitting on, somebody should have had the bloody guts to knock off that invisible crown you wear like your birth right. Sadly, nobody did anything.

On a personal level, it did hurt to be on the receiving end of so much crap, when I deserved none of it. You must have had your jollies watching my confidence and performance go down the drain. In the process, you really did bring in some sense into my head; you made me realize that people can be bad and this bad. Kudos!

Don’t worry, I emerged stronger, next time anybody tries to play shit with me, I know how to deal with them. You’ve probably scored brownies for being a responsible senior person in the team, in reality, you aren’t even half as good as you imagine yourself to be.

Respect, is earned and not coerced. People should look up to you for the person you are and for the strength you offer. If you think, being successful is all about putting down people and playing downright cheap politics, then you are on the wrong track.

I wouldn't waste my time and energy hoping you’d rot in hell. Don’t worry, the world is small, karma is a bitch and what goes around will truly and certainly come around.


PS: I don't really expect any of you to understand what's in this post. It was the worst phase of my life and am glad that it is in the past.

Awesome Blogger & Liebster Blog Award – A Tag

Ever sat in front a new post template and wondered why words fail you when you just drafted something worth writing in your head? It happens to me way to often, that's why I sometimes resort to writing stuff on bits of papers and then completely forget about them.

But you know you can instantly cook up something when a friend tags you and adds an Awesome Blogger Award along with it =D Thanks, Gitanjali  for tagging me and for passing on an award!

So here are the rules:

1.If you are tagged/nominated, you have to post 11 facts about yourself.
2.Then you answer the 11 questions the tagger has given you & make 11 questions for the people you are going to tag.
3. Tag 11 more Bloggers.
4. No tagging back.
5. Person you tag must have < 200 followers

And here we go:

11 facts about me:

Quite a task if you ask me, if you've been reading this space for long enough, you are well equipped to write my  mini-autobiography.
  1. I have immense faith in myself and over the years, I've learnt to face every adversity with a smile. I have matured as an individual. 
  2. Change in my opinion is inevitable and with every new opportunity that comes my way, I learn something new.
  3. I personally dislike, self conceited, self centered and people who take themselves too seriously.
  4. I try my best to keep my life and head as clutter free as possible, and every attempt at this makes my life a lot more complicated.
  5. I'm a self confessed control freak, I have to try and get to the end of every possible thing. I guess, this sums up my penchant for complicating and un-complicating things.
  6. Coffee, chocolates (dark chocolates preferably), conversations, books and people rule my life. Lipsticks and blushes are also included in this list. :P
  7. I'm very impatient and can be judgmental at times. Also, curiosity gets the better of me. 
  8. I'm not a very impulsive person, I think, re-think, re-re-think and finally executive what's in my head.
  9. I've been through a lot of shit this year, and thankfully emerged stronger.
  10. Chocolates and sleep are my ultimate comforters. 
  11. I hold a Phd in over-analysing, hyperventilating, not very proud of myself here.

11 questions Gitanjali wanted me to answer.

1. Blogging to me is - a medium of expressing my thoughts, no matter how silly or serious or inconsequential they are. It gives me the freedom to sound self-righteous and also tell the what I think is right. 

2. I recommend the following 3 blogs for you to read when you are free: There are a bunch of blogs that I read, each one of them have their own USPs. 

3. 5 songs on my play list. (Losing inspiration here) - It's ok Bum! Even I've lost inspiration here - I can't think beyond Kadal - by AR Rahman. The songs are truly addictive. Apart from this album, am addicted to You are my pumpkin pumpking, Hello, Honey Bunny. Ok, judge me :D

4. The last 5 books that I read were - Ok, this one is easy! - Kite Runner, Thousand Splendid Suns, To Kill A Mockingbird, Rozabal Line, Tamarind City and lots more!

5. The one movie that made me cry - Taare Zameen Par. I still have a feeling that am slightly dyslexic :P.

6. Some day, I will - Why this kolaveri di? Ok, someday, I will, quit my corporate job and take up teaching full time. 

7. Ten places i want to visit before- whatever - I have the same whatever feeling only. I'd like to explore India first - North-East would be a great place to start with, Kashmir, The Himalayan Region, Ok, I want to check out Goa as well. (Ok, I cheated :P)  

8. The one person who made a HUGE impact on my life would be? - I won't be cliched and say Amma. But I can't name just one person, it would be unfair, Ash Uncle, Charu Aunty, Kumar Sir. 

10. New year resolutions for 2013? - Learn to read and write Tamil, to be a more responsible individual, to bring a smile atleast to a couple of faces.

11. (finally!) One secret that nobody knows :P - Girl, it's supposed to be a secret no? :P 

Time for Tagging:

Now, it is time to ask questions =D

11 questions that you will have to answer:

1) What / who was your inspiration for blogging:
2) If there was one thing you could change about yourself, what would that be:
3) What in your opinion, makes life worth living:
4) Given a choice between a high-flying corporate job and a job that makes you the happiest, which one would you choose:
5) Describe yourself in one word, ok that's tough, let's make it one sentence:
6) Now do the same thing for describing your blog: (yes, I lost inspiration here :P)
7) What is that one thing that doesn't let you sleep:
8) Three awesome things about yourself: (Ideally I'd say, three awesome things about me, but I know I'll be pushing it too far)
9) Your biggest inspiration in life:
10) If I gave you a million dollars, what would you do with it:
11) Finally, do you want to be another person, for a single day? Then, who would that be:

(Now I know, why I will never be an examiner, ever)

Peace out :)

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

About Vidyut Jamwal and Other Random Things

Ok, so I disappeared again! After talking about my own little version of Eat-Pray-Love; I haven't really posted anything else, except for a Book Review, if that counts as a personal post.

Yeah, my Eat-Pray-Love started almost two months ago, let's face it, there are only a handful of days for this year to come to an end. If you ask me, what I've been doing; I'll be very honest and tell you, nothing much actually. I wanted to break away from the corporate rigmarole and spend some time doing nothing, absolutely nothing actually. Getting married was only a reason in the real sense.

Over the last couple of months, I've read and re-read a lot of books, I discovered a couple of  good Indian Authors - Ashwin Sanghi's and Tuhin Sinha's books were fairly good reads. I think I should start reviewing these books. Rediscovered Khaled Hosseini, I read the Kite Runner 4yrs ago, and it dint really have much of an impact on me then. I was probably a little too immature to understand the depth of his writing, and when I re-read the book, it gave me a brand new perspective. I picked up Thousand Splendid Suns soon after and in all honesty, they've been my best books in the last two months. Finally came around reading - To Kill a Mockingbird, if you can lay your hands on it, read it and you will not regret it one bit. I'm still considering a library membership. It's been a long time since I stood in the aisle browsing through books. Keep reminding me ok? Ok!

I'm learning to cook by the rule book. Before you raise your eyebrows, I can cook a decent meal, but it's not always traditional cooking. I have passed off Vengaya Sambar with Rasam podi and called it Sambar ok? I'm now trying to cook food the Amma-Way, and the experiments seem to going smoothly for now. That being the case, I want to give cook blogging a fresh and honest attempt and see where it takes me.

This Diwali, I tried my hand at making Mysorepak and Coconut Burfi, and truth to be told, they were melt-in-your-mouth. I know, I should be a little modest. Call it beginners luck or whatever, I devoured like half of what I made.

This was right after Diwali, so the fitness freak in me realised that I had only three months in hand to get back in shape, so I started jogging. I jogged for ten days in a row, after which tragedy struck. One fine Wednesday morning, after I finished like half my round, I tripped on God knows what and sprained my left hand, kinda twisted my ankle and also hurt my knee in the process. Tragic, I know. Don't even get me started on how bloody depressing it is.

So three weeks down the line, when I thought I was a little better I decided to try my luck with jogging again inspite of having a bout of cold. I threw up right on the beach. Sincerity at it's best, I know :P Oh wait, I'm not done yet.

Sometime in early December, I volunteered at a Painting Competition for Special Children conducted by a similar school. It was a life-changing experience, I'll definitely write about it sometime. Watching those children wield their paintbrushes gave me a whole new perspective about life. You need to be in their midst to actually feel it. I might in all probability volunteer more often. I really want to do a course to teaching these children.

I was talking to fellow volunteers who turned out to be college kids, who refused to believe that I was 25 and was getting married early next year, until I told them I dint know who, Mr.Vidyut Jamwal was. I think they slotted me in the aunties group after that. 17yr olds talking about men being hot, edible and the likes gives me a slightly aunty wala feeling. do you feel the same way? I've been through similar experiences like sticking up a 5ft long shirtless Hrithik Roshan poster and drooling over him. But these kids seem to be so far away from what we were.

In the meantime, I experimented with growing my nails, applied blue, yellow and orange nail polish.

I got back to the gym for the millionth time, and I overheard the gym instructor prescribing Fat Burner capsules to a fat guy, and I got inspired to try it out on myself, until a friend talked me right out of it.

Oh well! Before I forget, I'm doing a data analysis project for the School I was talking about. Am starting tomorrow. Wish me luck!

To sum up my Eat-Pray-Love -I jog, gym, cook, read, smile at random people. It's fun really ..!

In reality; I'm having the time of my life!

Peace Out :)